Personal Story: On Top or on Bottom of my Life
I’ve noticed I’m usually in, in general, one or two types of perspectives. In one I feel like things happen to me. I feel like I’m not in control, helpless, and am constantly overwhelmed. Nothing good comes out of this. I’m so caught up in my head, letting pressure, stress, and expectation take over. I’m not very happy, inspired, or productive.
But then there is this second perspective where I’m on top of my life. I know who I am and what I want without being attached to them. Things happen for me, and all in my favor. I feel inspired, I dream and have new ideas, and am productive.
I feel like a lot is more involved than just describing these perspectives as “pessimistic” and “optimistic”, but that is a big part of it. I’ve come to realize I can’t “try” to be in the second perspective, I’m just there.
There seems to be a lot of small decisions I make every day to be in that good place emotionally. I choose to follow my spirituality and don’t trust my negative thoughts. I consciously look at life positively, write in my journal to stay on top of my feelings, exercise, and am busy without even trying to be. I can’t allow my stress to take over. Instead, I allow myself to feel on top of my life and it makes all the difference in the world.